Loneliness

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my dream of yesterday has come true ..
the dream of being lonely ..
it really came true ..
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my phone haven even ring for once today ..
my msn dont even has a friend to find me ..
i cant even see any sign of being recognise ..
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will i be like the guy is the first pic ?
walking away from reality ..
walking away from this country ..
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will i be like the cat in the second pic ?
sitting alone like nobody care about ..
sitting in 1 corner anticipating nothing ..
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will i be like the man in the last pic ?
standing by the beach .. looking at the sky ..
like there no more hope in everything ..
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i'm using sleep to avoid lonely ..
i'm avoiding reality ..
i'm anticipating alot ..
i'm waiting ..
i'm doing nothing ..
i'm seriously lonely ..

conversation of the day ~

this is during i learn driving at the driving course .

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sohai = car teacher

me = me lor ..

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sohai : u have to let go ur clash and press accelerator

to go up the hill ..

i do as he say .. go up den die fire ..

sohai : haiyoo .. i ask u to press accelerator why u press clash !!

i put my leg there nia .. no press tio also =.=

sohai : u go back down then do it again ..

my leg slowly roll down the hill .. and go up again .. die fire again ..

sohai : haiyoo i told u dont press break !

dai lou .. i no press break the car fly lor ..

sohai : u go down again .. u better do properly ..

roll down .. go back up .. no die fire .. but nvr reach the line ..

sohai : haiyoo i say after the side mirror over the line only press !

turn 1 round back to the hill .. go up ~ die fire ..

sohai : haiyoo .. i dont know how to teach u already ..

ask u follow my intruction u nvr follow .

u want me how to teach u ! haiyoo ..

i dont want to teach u anymore d ..

then he get out of the car leaving me alone learn ..

guess what .. without him .. straight success ..

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do u all feel i nvr talk at all ?

cause his stupid mouth non-stop scold ..

i cant even say a word ..

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what has happen to this world ..

full of fuckers that scold ppl ..

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parking also no problem ..

because he not there !

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Signing off :

junior ( imagining me slaping that sohai )

FUCK THIS DATE ! 28/05/2009 !

I hate you ..

i hate you 28/05/2009 ( thursday ) ..

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i wasted 12 hour of my time ..

filling it with boringness ..

i felt stupid .. why should i even go ..

guess what .. ITS A FORCE that made me there ..

i dont blame all of ur hardwork ..

its just my own comment that its boring ..

but that still not the main reason ..

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its a day with full of anger and boringness ..

not only that ..

something happened ..

it makes me pissed ..

pissed to the end of my limit ..

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i dont care that happened dont meant anything to you ..

but it meant everything to me ..

it matters to the thing that i most treasured ..

u wont understand the word '' single parent ''

cause u all dont have it !

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I'm FUCKING PISSED ..

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singing off :

junior ( feels fucked up )

1st day of lesson for driving ~

first of all ..

the total die fire tdy is 3 ..

all die during stupid hill ..

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well its still fun ..

GEAR 4 !

70km/h !

even my dad dont let me that fast =x ..

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well b4 go back home ..

accident sei for once ..

too relax d XD ..

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this friday is the 2nd time ..

WISH ME LUCK !!

NO DIE FIRE !!

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signing off :

junior ( relieved )

Final Piece Of Joy & Happiness

In just a matter of time ago ..

I had decided ..

I'm gonna keep these memories ..

In my mind ..

It'd be my last piece of Joy & Happiness ..

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Living under a roof ..

Leash my feelings just for me ..

Leaving them inside of me .. While ..

Looking for a chance .. to say out my ..

Last words to you ..

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You're far from me ..

You're far enough for me to see a blur image ..

you weren't by my side always .. But ..

Youth and Time ..

I dont mind the search for

YOU ~

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the word i wanna say to you lies within the text ..

Because you're really the only one whom ..

i wanna share my Joy & Happiness with ..

Signing Off :

Junior ( i'm 17=D )

birthday ~

well its 15/5/2009

my birthday ~

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it was shocked when i studying for exam ..

roeshan n sanjiv went to use the mic ..

tell everybody in the school hall that is my bday ..

well .. everybody sang birthday song to me =)

thanks everybody ..

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well this year ..

only wishes but no present XD ..

sad case ~

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atleast some of my friends ..

they are celebrating for me =)

i'm grateful ..

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i'm 17 now ..

tmr go listen amali ..

not long ..

I"M GONNA DRIVE !

XD

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ok .. thats all for today XD

thanks for all ur wishes ! =D

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signing off :

junior ( birthday boy )

exam coming ~

wooo ..

here comes the annual ..

MID-TERM EXAM !!

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first of all ..

i never prepare at all ..

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the first exam day is on this thursday ..

14/5/2009

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i still got 3 day to go ~

wish me had enough time to study *.* ..

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the journey of study starts TMR !

10/5/2009 aka mother's day !!

I"M GOING TO STUDY !! =x

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this reminds me ..

i wish all the mothers around the world ..

a happy and healthy life =)

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signing off :

Junior ( ready to fail )